... I think my brain is somehow disconnecting in order to let the heart take over.. thus the weird feelings as of late.. or is the brain trying to hold of the heart? Everything is confusing.. atm.. yes it's my perception but still experiences I have...
I'm very much used to connect dots fast and effortless, but now this seems impossible... can't do it any more? This particular experience tosses logic right out of the window...
As often messages come by when least expected. I found these messages today and I will put my neck out and state that our issues are always about ourselves and never about somebody else.. <3 ~OT
"Sometimes people walk away from love because it is so beautiful that it terrifies them. Sometimes they leave because the connection shines a bright light on their dark places and they are not ready to work them through.
Sometimes they run away because they are not developmentally prepared to merge with another- they have more individuation work to do first.
Sometimes they take off because love is not a priority in their lives- they have another path and purpose to walk first.
Sometimes they end it because they prefer a relationship that is more practical than conscious, one that does not threaten the ways that they organize reality. Because so many of us carry shame, we have a tendency to personalize love's leavings, triggered by the rejection and feelings of abandonment. But this is not always true.
Sometimes it has nothing to do with us.
Sometimes the one who leaves is just not ready to hold it safe.
Sometimes they know something we don't- they know their limits at that moment in time. Real love is no easy path- readiness is everything. May we grieve loss without personalizing it. May we learn to love ourselves in the absence of the lover."
"We have a natural tendency to assume that a remarkable chemistry between two souls is confirmation that they are meant to be together. In the heat of profound feelings, it seems counter-intuitive to imagine ourselves separate from our beloved. But chemistry and longevity are not necessarily bedfellows. Just because we feel earth-shatteringly alive with someone doesn’t mean they are supposed to be our life partner.
They may have come for a very different reason- to awaken us, to expand us, to shatter us so wide open that we can never close again. Perhaps they were sent from afar to polish the rough diamond of our soul before vanishing into eternity.
Better we surrender our expectations when the beloved comes. (S)he may just be dropping in for a visit. Is the kettle on? (~an excerpt from 'An Uncommon Bond'- available for pre-order at www.enrealment.com)"